Out of the blue

"Please tell me why do birds,  sing when you're near me,  sing when you're close to me They say that I'm a fool,  for loving you deeply,  loving you secretly."   "Please tell me why can't I,  breathe when you're near me,  breathe when you're close to me I know, you know I'm lost,  in loving you deeply,  loving you secretly,  secretly."   Saybia-The Day After Tomorrow

Some people said that every single thing in our life must we write in our diary or must we capture with our camera. Why we must do that? Because, sometimes memories of the sweetest things in this world only happened for once. And I think that  you are one of the sweetest thing in my life that will happen for once , now, and not tom orrow .

Entah kenapa, akhir-akhir ini gue ngerasain seperti 2 tahun lalu. Seperti saat gue kelas 10. Hal yang dulu sangat membuat gue semangat ke sekolah dan rela-relain ke sekolah gara-gara hal itu. Hal yang selalu gue tunggu tiap sore menjelang malam. Dan sialnya, hal itu terjadi lagi. Di posisi yang sama, yap bener banget, gue ada di posisi yang sama. Diantara dua orang atau mungkin banyak orang. Persamaan karakteristik antara dua orang yang berbeda secara visual, membuat gue cukup dapat mengingat dan mengulang apa yang dulu sempat terjadi. Perbedaannya mungkin, hanya masalah waktu. Sekarang, terasa begitu lebih cepat terjadi dibandingkan dulu. Tapi, sebenernya intinya sama. But, I can't share the story in here. Kalo gue pikir-pikir lagi, ini juga seperti dulu. Saat gue bersama 'orang itu'. Kalo sama 'orang itu' kisah ini terasa lebih mungkin dan masuk akal, dan sialnya hal ini terjadi pada waktu yang sama pas dulu gue sama 'orang itu'. But, I've learned m...

Jujur, gue bingung harus ngomong apa untuk pertama kalinya setelah lama gak nge-post apapun di blog ini. Yah pokoknya rasanya tuh kayak lirik lagu Oasis yang Wonderwall, "there are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how.....". Persis banget rasanya kayak gitu. Yang jelas, sekarang gue udah kelas 12 dan tinggal hitungan bulan doang gue bakal jadi mahasiswa. I am getting older. Semakin tua, harus semakin dewasa juga wkwkwk. Pengennya sih bisa jadi maba UI, fakultas kesehatan masyarakat. Entah apa tapi dari awal kelas 10, gue udah tertarik banget sama fkm. Gue yakin gue bisa asal gue berusaha keras diiringi beribadah dan berdoa yang kenceng. But, it's not as easy as you think. Gue bukan atau mungkin tepatnya kurang tekun. I'm a person who is easily get bored when study. And, if I am not in a good mood to study, then I will not study. As easy as that. Dan, tentunya gue mau berubah. Mau. Tapi, kalo sekedar mau doang, gak bakal pernah gue bis...

It was probably about what I regretted this week. For the thing and the chance that I don't took. Life is a choice and I take my choice. I take that. Moreover, I know that I will loose some exhilarating things but, I know that this is more important. This is about the struggle that I do about a year. I don't want to make my parents and everyone dissapointed with me. I don't know why, but if my mom said, "No!", I will be okay with that. In the other of my mind, I just believe that, it's not about the person that you like. I feel sorry too, when I can't join with my first class last year. It's just because the little thing that make me realized that it's unimportant at all. Just believe that, if someone likes you and want to be with you, she or he will not go away from you. Although, there are some troubles like the distance, but I believe that, no matter what, he or she will stay with you or he or she will come to you or he or she will...

"I can hide everything that I wanted. Tears, Love, and Hatred." "Should I tell you about my secret? Should I tell that I like you?" "For everything that you did to me, can I make you be mine? Can I be yours?"

Assalamu'alaikum Warrahmatullahi Wabarakatuh. Alhamdulillah yah, sesuatu gitu-_- Did you know? It's the first time I say ' salamlekum '  in my blog. Astagfirullahalazim-_- Kenapa gue pake judul "Kembali Suci" terus pake emot malaikat like this {O:)}? Ya bener, kamu yang disana bener, kemaren gue abis ikut kegiatan sekolah yaitu Pesantren Kilat, jadi abis dari sana ya gitu, berasa kembali suci..... Amin..... Disana gue mulai dari tanggal 12-13 mei kemaren. Acaranya tuh seru banget soalnya semua akhwat sepuluh satu pada ikut sampe dzaki aja ikut.....:') (hidayah apa yang engkau turunkan Ya Allah?)-_- dari rumah, sorenya gue udah packing, gue bawa baju cuman 4 deh kayaknya, terus ternyata gue lupa bawa jacket dan lokasi tempat gue sanlat, di masjid biru puncak-ciawi, itu dingin banget..... Karena gue gak mau jadi beku-_- apa banget, akhirnya gue pergi ke rumah ijah, minjem jacket, sekalian ijah ngambil baju olahraga. Gue kesananya pinjem motor dedes, k...

It happened when 24th october 2011. My telephone was ring and my helper try to pick up and talk with someone on the phone. When my helper said 'halo', she heard someone was crying. And, i knew that someone on the phone was my mom. And she said that, "My dad was die". I didn't know what happened with my life after he left me for ever. I was sad, cry and really couldn't believe that my dad was die. I ever talk to God and Malaikat, "Why did You took my dad? WHY?". But, many people said, "You must be patient, i know that you can". My dad was die at Persahabatan Hospital, Jakarta. When my dad was die, my mom in his side. I knew that my mom really love my dad. When my dad arrived at our home. I couldn't believe that he was die. But, when i took a bath his body, he didn't breath again for ever. It was really hard when someone who you really love, left you for ever. It was not for a day, a month, or a year, it's for ever. My dad was bur...

I wish I could have a photo with you, when we wear a shirt with the same color.

He is my friend. He always care to me. Remember me when i forget, say hello in the morning, and say good night in the night. I know, that he doesn't love me, he loves one of my friend. He say, he want hold my hands everytime. He said, i could remove his bad behaviours, but.. He doesn't love me, he loves one of my friend.

Guys, i am sorry i can't show you the pictures. HAHA -_- Oke, abis dari sevel gua ber-16: Gue, Dite, Sendy, Ira, Pimpie, Rakha, Aya, Nissa, Tissa, Edo, Anto, Arip, Dimas, Helmi, Rajiv, Mira, Muti kita naik busway Rakha bilang, "Jalan terussss aja.. Nah, akhirnya kita ngikutin Rakha, dan jalan terus". Nah, udah jalan jauh banget, terus pada nanya, "Mana halte buswaynya?". Akhirnya kita berenti di pedagang pinggir jalan, pada minum (Gue gak minum-Masi punya slurpee). Terus kita jalaaaaan terus, dan akhirnya kita baru nyadar bahwa gak ketemu-temu tuh halte buswaynya. Kita di jalan diponegoro, berenti bentar. Dimas buka GPS. Gue duduk trotoar jalan, berharap dapet pertolongan. Akhirnya kita mau balik arah, ke tempat mana aja. Nah pas udah nyebrang dan balik arah, kita bingung lagi. Akhirnya duduk lagi di trotoar jalan dan ada polisi. Kita udah takut kan tuh, akhirnya kita jalan, dan jalan. Haus dan laper -_- Yeah! Dan pada saat mau jalan ke HI, kita berenti di taman...

Hi guys, meet me again on My Blog! Huuuuuaaaaa, many stories in this new year, yeah 2011. Ok, now, i will tell you my experience. The New Experience. Let's write in Bahasa! Ok, semuaaaa, hi, apa kabar? Pasti pada kangen baca tulisan gue ya -_- HAHA. Oke Kisah 16 Anak Muda. Let's start! Ok, waktu itu, tepatnya kemaren tanggal 30 Januari 2011, gue dan anak-anak spectave lainnya mengadakan foto buku tahunan di taman menteng. Gue berangakat bersama temen gue dan nyampe jam 06:45. Setelah nyampe, kita siap-siap pergi dan gue naik mobilnya shabin bareng Ayahnya shabin, shabin, gue, sendy, dite. Kita nyampe di taman menteng sekitar pukul 8-an lah. Terus kita foto-foto, dan pas mau foto kelompok+foto personal, rizka ngebuka cardigannya, wow, she looks so sexy, HAHAHAHA, setelah foto bt, gue dan beberapa kawan gue ke sevel buat makan. Nah, pas lagi di sevel, kita di telfon shabina bahwa dia udah mau pulang, kita mau nebeng shabina, so, kita turun dan nyebrang. Sesampainya di sebrang, ki...

When I studied at elementary school, I got many moments that I can’t get it now. In 6th grade, I ever fight with a boy. In 5 th grade a boy was my friend always called me at night and he didn’t ask something about school. In 4 th grade me and my friend ever wrote a love letter to a boy, but it’s a joke, it’s not serious. And in 4 th grade again my chairmate was boy inside and in front of me. And, when we had field trip to somewhere, a boy who our sent a love letter reach my hand. And we ever had a cheer mmm, many cheer from my friends and my teacher when we went to front of the field together.

Whatever, But, I want to tell you about my dream when I sleep tomorrow. First, my friends was sick and our school had a trip to somewhere. And my other friends had planned to went to somewhere, I remember that they had planned for took some photo. And then, In the dream, I feel so confuse, because I want to join with us but, I had another plan. So, when I thought about it, I left my bus and I took another bus (bus 2). In the second bus, I didn’t got chair. And someone offer a chair in his side to me. I know he didn’t got a chairmate because, his friend was sick, yeah, his friend was my friend that I tell you in the beginning. And, I sit inside him. I know him, he was my classmate. He was so friendly, he was kind boy. And, mmm he was handsome. Yeah, we didn’t talk, but his body was near my body. And then, it’s random, yeah, my dream was so random. Ok, but exactly we didn’t have a trip. Actually, we went to our friend house, because her mom was died. And, when we want to go to her house,...

I love you! You love she and I'm broken ;'(

You know? I have two moon in my face. Check it! In this picture, the moon it's not real. What's the moon? The moon in my face is my eyes. What? Yeah, when i laughing so loud, my eyes make a moon for a few time until i'm not laugh. So, if i laughing, you shouldn't see my eyes, maybe it's vanish. Bye readers!

Hi readers! Ketemu lagi kita, apa kabar? Baik-baik aja kan? Yepp, hari ini gua mau cerita tentang sebuah misteri ukiran nama gue. Saat SD, gue sekolah di SDI Al-Azhar 27 di Bogor. Nah waktu itu gue sempet pindah gedung ke gedung yang lebih luas (tapi nggak ada kolam renang kayak di gedung lama) huuuu.... Terus, gedung itu mengalami beberapa renovasi. Lapangan rumput yang kedua dijadiin lapangan basket (banyak lapangan di sekolah gue -_-). Nah, pas lagi penyemenan (di semen gitu) ada yang nulis nama AMANDA di pinggir lapangan. Nama itu terlihat sangat jelas, tapi mungkin sekarang gak begitu jelas karena udah di injek-injek. Dan, kayaknya waktu itu cuman ada satu nama AMANDA di sekolah gue. Nama itu sepertinya ditulis pake ranting yang kecil. Pas terakhir kemaren reunian, gue liat nama itu masih ada. Dan, sampe sekarang gue gak tau siapa yang nulis ukiran itu. Tapi, terima kasih banyak ya, yang udah nulis. Sekian ya readers! Bye!

I want to tell you about my Best Friend. Namanya Sendy. Lebih lengkap lagi Sendy Meilita Rachman. Dia temen gue yang udah 3 tahun sekelas ama gue. Gue seneng banget bisa temenan ama dia. Dia adalah temen terbaik gue Pertemuan Pertama Gue dan sendy bertemu saat MOS. Saat itu, gue sedang menunggu Aning, teman pertama gue. Lalu saat gue sedang berdiri cengo, ada seorang ibu-ibu yang bilang: "De, de, de, nih temenin temannya". Yah yang jelas gak seperti itulah, mirip-miripnya sih kayak gitu. Lalu, gue berkenalan-berkenalan-dan berkenalan. Akhirnya kita bisa akrab satu sama lain. Kelas 7-4 Yeah, gue 3 tahun sekelas ama sendy. So, pas kelas 7 gue sekelas ama dia. Waktu itu, pertama-tama gue belom tau gue kelas berapa, akhirnya pas gue ke meja piket, dikasih tau, kalo gue kelas 7-4. Dan sekelas sama sendy, WOW! Gue seneng banget. Akhirnya kita mencari dimana itu kelas 7-4. Setelah ketemu, ternyata kelas itu sangat sepi, akhirnya kita memilih bangku yang paling depan deket ac. Gue d...